The dreaded 2ww

Well I ended up triggering Tuesday night. They called me shortly after my last post and said my E2 was 451 so I was in my window to trigger. I either had 3 or 4 mature follicles when I triggered so hopefully one of them latches on and becomes a baby!!! I have been feeling so many mixed emotions the last few days. I'm glad that we decided to try one last time and I really couldn't have asked for a better cycle. I had a great amount of follicles (not too many but still more than I thought) my levels were great and I was able to quit smoking and drinking so try and give this the best possible chance at working as I could. I know my doctor was disappointed we weren't using IUI but it just feels like spending a few grand for that when I could just save it for bills, Christmas and everything else isn't possible. I'm trying to remind myself to be optimistic but to be realistic at the same time. I was doing laundry last night and thinking how weird it would be if this worked... How magically amazing to finally be able to be pregnant again. I was talking to my best friend yesterday and we started talking about our experiences with our secondary infertility. One year ago she was where I was... Almost exactly one year ago to be exact, we are actually only 2 days apart on our cycles. She found out the 28th of November and I'll find out the 26th. She is my inspiration though, she's so strong and she never gave up.