5 days post trigger and 9 days left of my tww

So far I'm okay with the Endometrin. It hasn't been nearly as bad as the other stuff they had my on last time as far as side effects go other than the cramping and the heartburn! Omg the heart burn is horrible. I don't remember eating so many tums in my life. I have it when I wake up, during the day and at night! I also started having to get up in the middle of the night to pee. All of these from what I have researched though are normal side effects of the progesterone. Boobs hurting, cramping, heartburn, peeing, nausea and every other symptom pregnant people get are what I'm experiences but mine is being caused my my medicine. I forgot exhaustion... But that's a given! I'm still on a roller coaster of emotions though, one minute I'm happy day dreaming about maybe being pregnant and the next I'm sad thinking that I'm only delaying the inevitable and this didn't work. Either way though I'm a lot happier for the most part than I have been. It's weird but deep down I have this excitement... But I don't want to share it with anyone aloud because I may jinx it so I write it here. Here is my safe place to talk about the things I don't want to jinx myself or end up looking dumb if this doesn't go the way I want. Please please let this go the way I want...