Let's start at the beginning...

I haven't really been very open with a lot of people about what has been going on for the last year and a half. I have not really discussed the issues that have been going on with fertility mostly because I didn't really have any answers to give. I felt that if I was to mention the issue of fertility we were having that I would be bombarded with a million questions and would be given  millions of little of pieces of advice that at the point I was at, would not have been received very well. By that I mean, I may have told you to "screw off and mind your own business"
When Ryan got home from his deployment in October 2011, we started actively trying to have another baby. I would have started sooner however without him being here that posed an obvious issue. I figured that since Emma was not really planned and we had such ease getting pregnant with her that getting pregnant again would be very easy. I have never been so wrong in my life
The first 6 months were pretty stressful and I didn't really get much support from family and friends because it had only been 6 months and it had taken people almost a year to get pregnant with their kids. After the first 6 months I started using tracking apps on my phone and ovulation kits. I became a POAS (pee on a stick) addict and I thought every ache and twinge for sure was me getting pregnant.
Then we hit a year... and I knew something was wrong. I wasn't sure what it was but I knew that this wasn't normal, so I scheduled an appointment with the doctor. He ran his tests and called and told me that all of my blood work checked out and that  I was fine. I asked him if he could refer me to a specialist so that they could do more extensive testing, and he agreed.
We went and saw a doctor at a very well respected Reproductive Endocrinology Practice in Delaware in November. They gave us a check list of tests that would need to be completed and then after everything was done we would make our game plan. Ryan and I both had blood work again, I had several days of my cycle that I needed to come in on so they could check for specific levels of hormones to make sure I was ovulating, they checked my AMH which is ovarian reserves, FSH, progesterone etc. Ryan had has swimmers checked and I had ultrasounds done to check for any issues. I also had a Sonography and HSG done.
We met with the doctor at the beginning of December and he told us that the good news was that all of our test came back normal. However, when dealing with infertility issues this isn't really "good" news, because this meant we were unexplained secondary infertility. He then gave us two options, we could try a cycle of what is called super ovulation or I could undergo a laparoscopy (. http://www.ivf.com/laprscpy.html)
We decided that we would try one round of super ovulation (http://www.ivf1.com/superovulation/) and timed intercourse and if that didn't work we would agree that something else was being missed so I would do the lap surgery. My body had other plans for us that month and when I went in to do my baseline ultrasound before beginning injections I had a huge cyst on my ovary and was forced to wait until the following month.
We tried our first round of injections in January after my cyst went away, I did 75 iui of Follistim for 10 days while going to the doctor pretty much every other day for a ultrasound and blood work to check the growth of the follicles. At first I had quite a few growing and they were doing pretty good, but then all of a sudden they disappeared and I ended up having one follicle that was 20mm on the day that I "triggered" with Ovidril.
Triggering drugs force your body to ovulate outside your bodies normal time. I then did progesterone suppositories for 2 weeks until my BETA (blood test checking for HSG) which happen to fall on Ryan and I's 4th Wedding Anniversary and also was exactly 4 years and 4 days after we found out we were pregnant with Emma. Mother Nature decided to save me the grief of waiting for my BETA tests though and had my period show up that morning.
After all of this, we were ready to go ahead with the lap, it was the only thing that made sense. I was really scared and reluctant to do it because other than a c-section with Emma that I was awake for I had never had any surgeries and aside from that I had never been put under. I also was not looking forward to the recovery process and not being able to do stuff I was used to doing,I and was scared of what they might find.
We called my mother in law who came in to help keep Emma distracted and visit with her and Ryan while I recovered and on March 7th we headed to the surgery center. Emma had been diagnosed with RSV a few days before my surgery and we had informed not only the surgery center but my doctors as well. They told us as long as when I came in I didn't have a fever or cough that I would be good to go. That didn't go as planned as we waited in the back hooked up to IV's for 3 hours before they decided that because of the risk I posed being exposed to RSV that I would be sent home and would need to come back the following week. Talk about mad I was piping steaming hot and I gave them an ear full! Fast forward to the following week and my amazing friend Jessica graciously accepted my request to take me to my surgery while Ryan stayed home with Emma. The surgery itself wasn't bad, because I don't remember it lol. I guess I was under for about an hour and a half and I awoke up with 4 incisions instead of the originally planned 3 I was told I would have. I have put some links up throughout this post since I am not really going into much detail about everything. If you really are interested you can click on them and they will give you better descriptions of everything. The first few days after the surgery were pretty rough for me, they fill you up with gas to maneuver around and as that gas comes out it shifts around in your body causing all kinds of aches and pains. For the most part I just stayed in bed and took my pain meds and slept because I had a hard time moving too fast or too far. Lucky for me I have one of the most amazing husbands in the world and he took stellar care of not only me but of Emma and the house and everything else.
Last Tuesday we had our follow up and this is where we are right now. During my surgery they found mild Endometriosis http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Endometriosis in my pelvis and my ovary. They found benign polyps inside one of my tubes and on one of my ovaries. They also found some adhesion's and apparently one of ovaries and my tube had attached themselves to my colon. Everything was removed or burned off during the lap.
There is good news and bad news with all of this, we still don't know if this is what is causing my infertility. We don't know if this means I will be able to get pregnant again without the use of drugs like super ovulation or if I conceive again naturally. I am trying to learn as much as I can about endometriosis because there isn't a cure for it, there isn't even a specific reason that some women get it and some women don't. There are a lot of uncertainties right now as far as my fertility goes. My goals right now are to continue recovering from this surgery and get my body healthy again. I want to be more open about this journey and I want to be able to support other's like myself who aren't sure where they fit into the whole infertility thing. So stay tuned because there is more to come... also for more information about infertility check out http://www.resolve.org/